Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Immigrant activists rally against Ariz. law

I know I won't be visiting Arizona, doing business with an Arizona interest, or purchasing anything from Arizona.

RE: Immigrant activists rally against Ariz. law

...Juan Garcia, head of the Committee of Immigrants in Action, said May 1 International Workers’ Day observances in Providence will also include protests against the Arizona law, “so that it doesn’t become law in Rhode Island.”

The observances Saturday will include marches in the city, ending with a 3:30 p.m. rally on the State House lawn. Sponsoring organizations include Immigrants in Action, Fuerza Laboral/Power of Workers, Direct Action for Rights and Equality, Rhode Island Jobs with Justice, the Brown Student Labor Alliance, Ocean State Action, and the American Friends Service Committee of Southeastern New England...

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

My Drive Home Today


It may be Spring where you are, but not here.

Boobquake


Yesterday, a strong effort to invoke earthquakes by shaking boobs failed to cause a trimmer, I only wish they would try again today, and tomorrow, and the next day...


AZ governor dismisses threat of economic boycott

She just made the biggest mistake of her term. We are now not only dedicated to boycotting Arizona, but we're going to make sure she eats those words. Everyone loves a challenge.

RE: AZ governor dismisses threat of economic boycott

Monday, April 26, 2010

That's all for tonight

I was recently diagnosed with a very painful nerve ailment and I can't take sitting up any longer today, so good night everyone, anyone, or whoever is out there.

Papeles mojados


Speaking of Chambao, here's a few by this unique band.



The fascist assholes of Arizona should listen to this. Perhaps they might wake up and realize just how evil they've been.

And of course, as Latin musicians often do, we have Chambao with another one of my favorites, Bebe.



These two sound like sisters.

I have no idea why many of the Bebe videos will not allowing embedding, but check this one out: Siempre me quedera

Volver




Estrella Morente is the real voice behind Penelope Cruz's solo of "Volver". This woman is not only a divine singer, she is beautiful.



I didn't realize that Estrella Morente sings in this song by Chambao (another one of my favorite bands).


Ana Salazar


I think I've found another gem.






Tu Caramelo



Concha has an interesting flavor.

Bridget the Douche-Bag

I have a stalker whose name is Bridget. She is originally from Palos Verdes, California but now lives near Baltimore, Maryland. She works for the Defense Intelligence Agency. About one and a half years ago she emailed me under he fake identity to deny that she was Bridget. I exchanged a few emails with her, the last one when I was in Mexico City the December before last. Despite her denials, I knew it was her. I let her continue to lie and did not argue with her about it because I wanted to see just how easily she can lie. I stopped the exchange that December.

Knowing that she is a liar helped me get over her (I was once in love with her, when we knew each other in California). She turned out to be so much less than I thought she was. This song is for her.



Sunday, April 25, 2010

A corner of the livingroom...

The Back Yard


How would you like to have this backyard? I spent this last weekend here. I would take this over Palm Springs any day. After living in California for many years, I came to the conclusion that California is ugly, very ugly.

I live where the moose run free and where you occasional see bears crossing the road. I love living in the forest.

Dinner



This was my dinner on Friday. It's a lobster submarine sandwich and one of the many reasons I love New England. mmmmmm.......

Beautiful Sky While Driving Home Tonight


I wonder if the colors have anything to do with the volcano in Iceland? Due to the fact that I have a stalker, I cannot include the location of this photo, but it was taken this evening (by yours truly) while driving home. Think north, very far north.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Some truckers plan boycott over Arizona immigration law

Five days is not enough. They should use their trucks to block all interstate highways in and out of Arizona until Arizona's economy collapses.

Boycott Nazizona!

RE: Some truckers plan boycott over Arizona immigration law

Two or three times a week, truck driver Jesus Serrano hauls loads of Mexican-grown produce from warehouses in Nogales, Ariz., which is just across the U.S.-Mexico border, to distribution centers in Los Angeles.

Serrano plans to stop making the trip now that Arizona Republican Gov. Jan Brewer has signed a stringent anti-illegal immigration bill into law, however, and he's recruited other truckers to join him.

Serrano, the independent owner-operator of a Los Angeles-based trucking company, said that about 70 drivers based in California and Arizona had agreed to stop moving loads into or out of Arizona in protest of the new law. He hopes to get 200 truckers on board for a five-day boycott that will start within 48 hours of the bill's signing...

Arizona immigration bill: Lawyers group to boycott Arizona

Bravo. Everyone should cancel any plans they have that involve Arizona.

RE: Arizona immigration bill: Lawyers group to boycott Arizona

Association has vowed to boycott the state of Arizona, canceling their fall national convention at the Scottsdale Marriott.

The boycott comes hours after Gov. Jan Brewer signed Senate Bill 1070 into law.

"Right after the bill was signed, our board of governors had an emergency meeting and voted on whether or not we would keep the conference in Scottsdale," said former AILA chair Mo Goldman, a Tucson attorney.

The vote to cancel and relocate the convention was nearly unanimous, Goldman said.

The venue's penalty for canceling the event is approximately $92,000, though the association is attempting to mitigate the cost.

"As an association, we couldn't in good conscience spend the association's money in a state that has this kind of policy," Goldman said.

Goldman said AILA views the bill, which would allow officers to request citizenship identification from any person at any time, as unconstitutional.

It is unknown what the final costs of the cancellation will be.

Don’t talk to aliens, warns Stephen Hawking

I'm not sure I agree completely with Hawking on this. What he should say (and perhaps he does because we do not read his own words in the article) is that we should not blindly go about letting aliens know we exist, assuming they exist. That would require abandoning electromagnetic broadcasting. It would also require a total ban on the detonation of atomic weapons, as these give off a strong electromagnetic signal. It also implies that we should actively listen for aliens (e.g. the SETI project) to gain intelligence on aliens and then take steps to ensure no contact.

Hawking's alleged position is predicated on the belief that intelligent beings will act much as we do - as pillaging assholes. Additionally, their ability to get to us would mean they are more advanced than we are.

This point of view is worthy of consideration.

RE: Don’t talk to aliens, warns Stephen Hawking

...Such scenes are speculative, but Hawking uses them to lead on to a serious point: that a few life forms could be intelligent and pose a threat. Hawking believes that contact with such a species could be devastating for humanity.

He suggests that aliens might simply raid Earth for its resources and then move on: “We only have to look at ourselves to see how intelligent life might develop into something we wouldn’t want to meet. I imagine they might exist in massive ships, having used up all the resources from their home planet. Such advanced aliens would perhaps become nomads, looking to conquer and colonise whatever planets they can reach.”

He concludes that trying to make contact with alien races is “a little too risky”. He said: “If aliens ever visit us, I think the outcome would be much as when Christopher Columbus first landed in America, which didn’t turn out very well for the Native Americans.”...

What Hawking is saying is that aliens will be just like Americans and we know what Americans do.

Boycott Arizona!

Author: Stephen DeVoy

Arizona has made it illegal for immigrants to go about their daily routines without carrying their immigration documents. There are many reasons why one might not be carrying such documents. For example, replacing the documents is often impossible should they be stolen. Additionally, Arizona's police can now stop anyone on suspicion of being an immigrant and demand these documents. My wife is a permanent resident alien of the United States. She is from El Salvador and speaks English with heavy accent. Our daughter is a U.S. Citizen and I am a U.S. Citizen. Should we travel to or through Arizona, we now must worry that Arizona's Gestapo might stop us and throw us into a legal nightmare. Though my wife is completely legal, we all know that legal entanglements can take a lot of time to untangle. I don't want to risk my wife being held by Gestapo in a jail somewhere in America's Southwest. Consequently, we've decided to never return to Arizona, so long as Arizona is prepared to trample upon our rights and harass us.

In light of Arizona's fascist and discriminatory law, any legal immigrant passing through or living in Arizona now must fear harassment by local police. If you trust the police, I suggest you go to YouTube and see the countless videos of American police officers brutally beating innocent people, tasering them, and otherwise behaving like Nazi brownshirts. Arizona police already have a national reputation of being trigger happy. Arizona sports a sheriff that interns prisoners in tents out in the desert, feeding them only bologna sandwiches, and forcing them to pedal bicycle based generators to watch television. No other state in the United States is so brutal, backwards, and mean spirited. Why on Earth would anyone wish to visit a state inhabited by people who support such inhuman behavior and such draconian and unconstitutional laws?

Arizona's neo-fascist white citizenry is fond of claiming that they are “under siege” by “illegal immigrants. They ignore completely the fact that they live on land stolen from Native Americans and Mexico. They tear up the desert to build monotonous communities of cookie cutter homes while declaring that it is the beauty of Arizona's deserts that bring them to live there.

I call upon all Americans with a conscience to boycott Arizona, completely. Do not travel to Arizona. Do not purchase any products from Arizona. Do not do business with any companies based in Arizona. Do not fly between any two destinations if you must change planes in Arizona. And, most importantly, if you are an immigrant, stay far away from Arizona. Arizona doesn't want you there. Arizona hates you enough to seek to destroy your life and subject you to daily harassment for nothing more than not being white.

Boycott Arizona!

Friday, April 23, 2010

Quiero Tenerte



Such a beautiful video.

Pensando en ti (Thinking of you)



Flamenco Arabe


Thursday, April 22, 2010

Blogger: Show cleavage to test cleric’s quake theory

I'm all in favor of empirical evidence. I urge all women to show cleavage on April 26. It is for the sake of science. You can give more by wearing less.

McCreight should win two Nobel prizes for this.

RE: Blogger: Show cleavage to test cleric’s quake theory

...McCreight, who is pursuing a double major in genetics and evolution, took to her blog, Blag Hag, on Monday, demanding that the world’s women band together in a scientific experiment to test the merits of Sadeghi’s hypothesis.

“Time for a Boobquake,” she wrote. “On Monday, April 26, I will wear the most cleavage-showing shirt I own. ... I encourage other female skeptics to join me and embrace the supposed supernatural power of their breasts. Or short shorts, if that's your preferred form of immodesty.”

She continued, “With the power of our scandalous bodies combined, we should surely produce an earthquake. If not, I'm sure [Sadeghi] can come up with a rational explanation for why the ground didn’t rumble.”...

Larry King gets flak for Palin comments

This supports my theory that most feminists hate men. Sarah Silverman says Palin should pose nude in Playboy. Larry King merely replies "Agreed" and who do the feminists attack? They attack Larry King, not Sarah Silverman. What do they think Larry King should have said?

RE: Larry King gets flak for Palin comments

On Tuesday night, CNN's Larry King had comedian Sarah Silverman on his program and, towards the end of the show, Silverman made a crack about whether Sarah Palin should pose for Playboy. Silverman said "I think she should go for it" and King responded, "Agreed."

As might be expected, the comment has irked some.

Lulu Flores, president of the National Women's Political Caucus, told POLITICO that King's comments were, “waaaaayyy inappropriate.”

Referring to King's recent divorce filings to end his 8th marriage, Laura Ingraham said, "Larry, when you're in a hole, stop digging."

"Larry should pose for 'Viagra Monthly'," said Ann Coulter...

I think An Coulter should pose in a transexual magazine.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

OK, one more song.



Perfecta



BUENOS NOCHES
TENGO QUE DORMIR

Machine


Here's an exotic band: Puerto Rican/North American/Israeli.
Very artistic. I like it.



El Estuche



I love unconventional women.

So Bad



What can I say, she's an artist?

Monitor



Blame Me, Dedicated to Holly



Dedicated to a someone with an exaggerated memory.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Je marche à toi (I walk to you)


I leave with some beautiful songs by Québécoise Chloé Sainte-Marie.




Como los olivos (Like the olives...)

Now this song is one of the sexiest ever. It reminds me of meeting my wife for the first time in El Salvador. The main refrain translates to:

I am from the South, you are from the North
we do not speak the same language, but we do it so what does it matter?
I am from the South, you are from the North
we do not speak the same language, but we do it so what does it matter?
Because I will take you, soul and all,
and teach you to dance,
so that I will give you my skin until I drive you crazy,
I will take you, soul and all,
and I will teach you to dance,
so that I will give you my skin until I lose myself completely.

or, as the original reads...

Yo soy del sur tu eres del norte,
no hablamo' el mismo idioma pero haremo' q no importe,
yo soy del sur tu eres del norte,
no hablamo' el mismo idioma pero haremo' que no importe,
porque te robare hasta el alma,
te enseñare a bailar,
que te voy a dar mi piel hasta hacerte enloquecer,
te robare hasta el alma,
te enseñare a bailar,
que te voy a dar mi piel hasta pedirme mas,

When my wife and I met, we could not speak each other's language, but now I am fluent in Spanish and she is pretty good with English.




Here is a video of Bebe singing this song in a recording session. Bebe is probably not most guy's cup of tea, but she is exactly the kind of woman I find irresistible. Physically, she is very much like my wife.


Duende del Sur

The proper translation of the title is uncertain to me. It could mean "Genie of the South", "Midget of the South" or "Little Person of the South".

In any case, I think of my daughter when I hear this song.



Corre Lola, Corre (Run Lola, Run)


This is one of my favorite videos, ever. It's also one of my favorite songs by Ojos de brujo.

Piedras vs tanques (Rocks vs tanks)




I love this band.

Touching Yourself



Saturday, April 17, 2010

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Gute Nacht!

Ich fühle mich müde. Jetz ist Zeit zu schlafen. Gute Nacht!




In the red-light district nights at half past mid-night...




Where have all the flowers gone?




Woman that aren't much to look at, but I love them anyway


She wasn't much to look at, but her music would have seduced me. I find music very sexy. In fact, if a woman is musical, that alone might be enough to seduce me.



I would definitely fall for Alanis.


Mary Margaret O'Hara could become a disembodied brain, and I would still want to be with her.


Sinead? Yeah, I would, but I would be afraid of the next morning. Which Sinead would be lying next to me. Which me would be lying next to Sinead? There are too many possibilities for disaster. Nevertheless, I still would.


I don't care how old Ana gets. Her voice turns me on. It always has and always will.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Dirty Boulevard


I leave you with this accurate picture of America.

Spanglish?


The word "Spanglish" is overused. Spanglish is not the same thing as bilingual. Spanglish involves code-switching, were specific phrases are borrowed whole from English and used within Spanish conversation as whole units. For example, "Que pasa, my sweetie calente?" or "Fui estudiando quando oye el cabron y pienso, what the fuck!"

Below is a video that is not an example of Spanglish. It is simply bilingual. (Thalia looks yummy).


This next one IS REAL SPANGLISH. I love Spanglish, like I said, I speak it at home.


Some more Spanglish...

Marie-Jo Thério


"Marie-Jo" is an Acadienne from New Brunswick (where some of my ancestors are from). Some of her works feature "franglais", a code-switching mixture of French and English. I love code-switching linguistic zones (at least from a linguistic point of view). One of the two things I loved most about Miami as Spanglish. We still speak Spanglish at home (it's the language of my little family of three). (The other thing I liked about Miami was topless women).


Moncton is a unique place. I've never been anywhere like it.


Piel Canela

I love this song. Sadly, it is not available for embedding, you must go to the link to see it: Piel Canela

"me importas tu, y tu, y tu, solemente tu..."
"only you are important to me, and you, and you, and only you,..."

Te amo



El amor es bonito pero tambien se hace tanto dolor.

Just Finished my Taxes, Yeeeeee, haaaaaawwww!

Man, what a bear! I have income from six different state sized jurisdictions (I won't say what country) and it was freeking complicated. Anyway, I'm done. I owe less than I thought, so this is a relief. In fact, I'm almost entirely 100% out of debt. I should be completely debt free in less than a year, for the first time since my ex-wife coerced me into buying a god-damned condo I didn't want in 1987.



Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Thaimaimmat - Chloé Sainte-Marie


Bon Nuit!


Mary Margaret O'Hara

Mary Margaret O'Hara is someone I think I would really love to know. Her poetry touches my soul.









I've heard it said that she is a favorite of Morrissey too.

I hate doing my taxes

Unlike most people, I do not mind paying taxes. However, I do mind when the taxes I pay are used towards evil or corrupt purposes, such as war, shoving money up the asses of politicians, and rewarding society's leeches (e.g. bank executives, CEOs, etc) for fucking us up the ass. That aside, what I had most about doing my taxes is that I feel like there is a bullet to my head that will be pulled if I make a mistake. That is what I hate the most.


Monday, April 12, 2010

Time to go to bed. Hare Krishna.



Good night. I leave you in the hands of Krishna, or Jesus, or Buddha, or whatever you aim towards...

Emo vs. punks vs. hare krishna

From the world of "fucking crazy", we have this video from Mexico, a news account of a battle between "Emo" and "Punk" youth. Allegedly, the punks were angry that the emos were copying their styles. What stopped the battle was a group of Hare Krishnas wandering between the bands of stupid poseurs. This video gets 5 LOLs.



The Smiths

I know nothing about the type of mind Morrissey has (from a clinical point of view, thought it is obvious that he is a genius), but no one's lyrics better describe the states of mind that bi-polar people experience.

If you want to know what it is like to suffer from depression, listen to the songs below.








I've heard it said many times that depression is an "attitude" or that those suffering from depression are "weak." Nothing could be more off. Depression hurts, physically. If anything, life with depression is a sign of strength, for just existing is like carrying a mountain on your back. Suicide is what happens when it is no longer possible to continue carrying that mountain. Depression is to suffer from existence itself.

Next, the following videos describe well a manic state of mind, a mind free of inhibition. It's fun, but it get you in trouble, lots of trouble.







Many people have the impression that a manic state is an "up" state in an emotional sense. Sometimes it can be "up" in terms of energy but "down" in terms of emotional affect, as in this next song. Such a state is called "agitated" and that is the worst state of all for bi-polar people.


Natalia LaFourcade



I want those sun glasses.





BTW, Natalia is 26 years old. It's hard to believe.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Yunu Yucu Ninu


I'm very tired and need to turn in to bed. I leave you with some beautiful songs sung by Lila Downs.






Mamitunenitamun

I think I'm head over heals for Chloé Sainte-Marie. I finally found one of her CDs. I'm going to track down her next concert and go to see her.







Saturday, April 10, 2010

Obsessive Ex Syndrome

Here's something that I've discovered I need to find out more about.

RE: Obsessive Ex Syndrome

Court filing reveals taunted teen's anguish in final hours

If I had my way, sociopaths would be identified before birth and aborted. Those that went undetected would be liquidated at first notice. Think of how much better a world this would be if all sociopaths were eliminated!

RE: Court filing reveals taunted teen's anguish in final hours

During the last afternoon of her life, 15-year-old freshman Phoebe Prince was loudly berated in the high school library and she was taunted again as school let out, court documents say.

And, as she walked home in tears, one of the students passing by in a car called Prince names and tossed an empty can at her, according to the 38-page court filing that offers the first detailed account of a high school bullying scandal that has gained the national spotlight.

Prince used her cell phone to send text messages to a friend, saying that she was distraught over the relentless hazing. Her last text message went out at 2:48 p.m. She also received two messages but never opened them, the document states.

By 4:55 p.m., she was dead...

I understand how Phoebe felt because I want through the same kind of torment as a boy in school, only I suspect mine was worse. I could not go home without being beaten by several kids at the same time (cowards work in groups). The number of times I was physically beaten, thrice to the point of losing consciousness, numbers in the hundreds. I was verbally taunted as well. In fifth grade, three boys "hucked lungies" in my jacket that was hanging outside the classroom. It was below freezing outside. I had to go home in the deathly cold without my jacket. Another time a girl snuck up behind me on the stairwell and poured a vile of concentrated perfume in my hair. I was so horribly humiliated by it that I just continued down the stair well to the front door, walked out of the school, and went home. I didn't even stop by the office. I just left.

In fifth grade a boy brought an army shovel on the school bus and beat me over the head with it until I lost consciousness. Another kid hit me over the head with a pipe while I was on a tennis court. The son of a Dedham police officer threw a hard ball at full speed into the back of my head as I was returning from gym class, intentionally. I dropped to the ground unconsciousness and lost my sight for a moment as I was coming to. On the last day of school I was kicked in the throat until it swelled up to the point I could not breath. I nearly died.

The above is a SMALL sample of what I went through. Each and every day I wanted to die.

Later in my life I would face similar harassment online, a torment that nearly led to suicide. I have since discovered who all the primary players in that harassment are. I haven't revealed their names yet, but I am most disappointed with two people in Carlsbad, California and another person in Naragansett, Rhode Island (as well as several others). The pair that now live in Carlsbad began interfering in my life and work as far back as 1992. I've had to instruct my family not to share any information with this pair and their relatives, as none of them can be trusted.

It is sad what people will do to one another when they believe they can do it with impunity. When I taught a course in Ethics at a college in Miami, I asked my students to write on a piece of paper the things they would do if they could do them anonymously and be sure that no one would ever find out. They dropped their notes into a bucket and then I read them out loud, anonymously, to the class. One student wrote that he/she would murder someone just to have the experience and find out what it felt like. Another said he/she would rape someone. There were other sick notes too. The person you love might be such a person. You may never know, unless you break up and time causes you to lose connection. That person might then start trying to destroy your life. Things like this happen all the time.

(I guess that a couple unable to create children never reaches that point of maturity where one realizes the preciousness of life. Perhaps the envy that comes from never becoming a complete human being causes some people to taunt those who have become complete human beings.)



Morning has Broken



Friday, April 9, 2010

Bon nuit

It's that time again. I need to turn in. Good night to all.

Everyone needs someone to blame

One thing about getting older is that unless you married the first person you loved and stayed forever in the same place, you accumulate people in your past which have become estranged. As time goes on, some people prune, rearrange, and distort their memories so that they can divert blame from themselves onto others. People need blame for the strangest things. The woman that screwed around when she was young later finds religion or marries a religious man and then seeks a scapegoat for her own activities of youth. Women seem to do this more than men do and I think this imbalance in distortion is the result of the greater emphasis that our society puts upon the "purity" of women in contrast to that of men.

Many years ago I received a letter from a woman that had been my girlfriend many years back. She accused me of all kinds of terrible things that did not match with my own memories. I was so shocked by her accusations that I went into a deep depression that cascaded into other areas of my life until I completely broke down. I have a very accurate memory of nearly everything in my life. Yes, there are gaps, but every incident she mentioned I remember clearly and my interpretation of what happened is different from hers. I do not believe she was lying. I believe that she believed everything she said, but I know she is not correct. Indeed, if she were correct, we would have broken up much earlier.

For many years this troubled me greatly and then I realized something. This woman admits that she thought I was much older than I am. Now, I remember very clearly that she knew how old I was. I also remember her asking me what year I was born and I remember her answer to the same question. We were only three years apart, but in her memory we were so far apart that I was some kind of perverted old man. She also imagined that I was a Texan. I was born in the town next to her town in Massachusetts. I told her that. She knew my whole family was there. 9 years later she thought I was from a different state than I was actually from.

I asked her about other things, like my attitudes about various things (everyone knows I am outspoken) and she did not remember that either. Consequently, I ask the question, "If she could not even remember the approximate difference in age between us or even where I am from (despite the fact that we were engaged), then how can I accept memories she has that differ from mine as being correct? I remember everything about her. Heck, I still remember her telephone number.

I have revisited in my mind each incident she wrote me about and I see only a small resemblance between her memory and what actually happened. It is as if I accidentally stepped on her toe and she remembers me cutting it off with a sword.

However, and this is a big "however", if I had treated her well, she would never have been able to amplify reality into making small errors on my part into large errors. My advice to the young is to treat your girlfriend the way you would want someone to treat your mother, because if you are even the slightest bit of an asshole, her exaggeration much later will describe you as a monster.

Those of you that saw the online harassment I went through several years back know I was accused of some nasty things. I believe that this woman's false accusations were the seed of that libel.

When I went to her house to offer friendship three years after we broke up, she hugged me and took a walk with me, alone. She never mentioned anything bad. The guy she had left me for was even older than I was. How could six years without contact (from that visit three years after we broke up) have sprouted a completely new interpretation of events? I remember in our last conversation that she took me to task for not believing in a higher power and she gave me the impression that she had suddenly become very religious. I speculate that she had the psychological need to recast the past. I was no angel, but my assholeness was a product of suffering from aspergers and not knowing how to relate to people. The guy she left me for, his name is Jim, had repeatedly beaten a previous girlfriend named Linda. I was one of the people who had to interfere to educate him that beating one's girlfriend is not right. Jim's advice to me was always "when girls say no, they mean yes." Evidently he sweet talked my ex-girlfriend because she is clueless about this part of his past. She should think about the fact that we never made love because I took "no" for an answer.

They say a rolling stone gathers no moss, but they fail to mention that a rolling stone gathers a lot of shit.





Despite having been falsely accused, I apologize for being so selfish, arrogant, and socially retarded. I was not yet ready for a relationship. I wish they trained boys in school to understand women. On that level, I was a complete moron. Obviously, she resented me. I feel very sad about that. I've worked my whole life to become a better person. I still care about her. I hope her life is full of love and happiness.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

A few inspirational songs before I turn in for the night.




...
El presente es lo único que tengo
el presente es lo único que hay
es contigo mi vida con quien puedo sentir
que merece la pena vivir
...

The present is all that I have
The present is all that there is
It is with you, my darling, that I can feel
the value in troubling to live.

If you don't speak Spanish, learn. You're missing the best and most meaningful music of our time.



The above song is about the miracle of life (as you should guess from the "pregnant" woman in the video). My interpretation is that it is about the beginning of life from the point of view of the fetus/baby.

Y es que fueron, fueron tus abrazos
que como sablazos me hicieron pedazos
afiladas fueron tus miradas
quedé destrozada y en llanto inundada.
Roja y loca, la flama de tu boca
me quemó, y apagarme me toca.

Empiezo una nueva vida
un rompecabezas que tendré que armar.
Bien lejos, lejos de su influjo
esa cruel fragancia que invadió mi ser.

De la maleza surgieron tus promesas
germinando tristeza en mi cabeza.
Tu bajeza me tomó por sorpresa,
para lastimar, tienes mucha destreza.
Que delicia fueron tus caricias
mala noticia, eran pura malicia.

Empiezo una nueva vida
un rompecabezas que tendré que armar.
Bien lejos, lejos de su influjo
esa extravagancia que torció mi fe.

Ya no quiero ir hacia usted corriendo,
ya no quiero más gritar su nombre.

Bien lejos, lejos de su influjo
era casi muerte, que fue su querer.
Empiezo....



This song (see above) is personally significant to me. I remember feeling this way and now, that I am old, I realize how stupid I was. If I could do it all again, I would have married even younger and had lots of children.


The real enemy of life is hierarchy. Hierarchy is created by ideology. Human life was most worth living when everyone knew nothing and reproducing was the primary directive. Our lives became Hell at the moment we decided that WE were not animals.

Quakerism and Hinduism


I am a slightly odd bird when it comes to cosmology. I see myself as a pantheist. My understanding is that the entire universe is one being and that we, as part of that being, are one with one another and with the universe. I see the universe as God and we as part of God. This is very similar to the Hindu view of cosmology, but it also intersects with the Quaker view. For Hindus, we are all in God and for Quakers, God is in all of us. I see the two as essentially the same, for if God is in all of us, then we are all in God.





Of course, there are a great many differences between Hinduism and Quakerism. Hinduism, at least in practice, generally employs symbolism and images as the focus point of meditation, while Quakerism rejects symbolism and images as the focus of "anticipated waiting", the Quaker way of describing group meditation. Hindus meditate individually and Quakers meditate in groups. Hindus experience their enlightenment individually and Quakers share their enlightenment with one another as it happens.

In the end, however, both interact with the universal "God" directly and both rely on this direct experience, rather than on blind faith. In a sense, that is what makes Quakers different from canonical Christians. Quakers don't take God on faith. Quakers take God on direct experience of God. The Bible is completely unneeded in Quakerism (though some cling to it nevertheless).

Bhagavad Gita


The Bhagavad Gita is one of my favorite books.


Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Happy Birthday Hang

Your birthday message is on my Anarkhos website. How does it feel to be 49?

Sexiest Women Alive

I agree that it is quite neanderthal of me to create such a post, but I am part neanderthal, so live with it.



Nathalie Cardone



Penélope Cruz
¡Ay, nunca existia una mujer tan linda y hermosa que Penélope!


Salma Hayek


Gloria Trevi (in a strange way, a soul-mate)


Drew Barrymore


Milla Jovovich

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Country and Western is not American, It's Canadian



If you ever wondered where "Country and Western" really came from, "Musique acadien" is the answer. This most American of music is actually Canadian.










I love this stuff. It hits my soul like it belongs there. I must have Acadian blood. When I hear it on the radio at work, I want to get up and dance.

Next, some Creole Cajun Zydeco music.



Bird Dog



Scratch the surface of a bird-dog and you'll find a sociopath.

Julieta Venegas - En Zacatecas



I call dibs on this woman in the next life. She's my idea of the perfect woman.



Monday, April 5, 2010

For my stalker



What's Better: Ignorance or Anti-Feminism?



Both are better than feminism.

Spock


As a child, I most wanted to be like Spock.

In reality, I turned out to be most illogical.

Lost in Space


As a child, this was my favourite show. Take note that this is a marketing video trying to gain commercial sponsors for the show. Little did I know, at a young age, I was being "sold" by marketers to sponsors. What is missing from this trailer?


What was missing above was Robot.


As a child, I so much wanted my own robot that I cuddled up every night in bed with my Lost in Space Robot toy.



The above toy is exactly the one I had. I remember the smell of it. The plastic had a metallic smell. Who knows what chemicals lurked within? Back then, we only had carbon-mercury batteries.

Te Amo Tanto



Para ti querida (si, tu esposita)

Asi fue (It was like this)



Lo que fue no es y, ultimamente, la futura siempre da la vida una existencia mejor que lo que fue. Los amistades entre amantes anteriores, no sirven para nada. Lo que es terminado, es terminado.

La Tobala



esperanza fernandez por tangos



Me encanta flamenco.